She felt that she was happy, but not completely. She had everything that she wished for. Everything was going the way she wanted. She would have long walks through the city at night, flowers every anniversary, a shoulder to cry on, someone who understood her. She could say that she was happy. She was able to laugh again, she was able to wake up and see him beside her, with his back turned to her. She would smile and hug him, waiting for him to wake up. She felt in love. She felt… she felt herself.
But beneath all that, she knew that something was missing. That little thing which made her smile even more, laugh even more. She never knew what it was, until one day, when while sitting in her favorite bar, all by herself, someone sat next to her. She heard a very familiar “Hello”. When she looked towards the origin of the sound, she was petrified. She couldn’t believe that it was HIM. The one who left her into pieces. The one who succeeded in rendering her emotionally invalid for a few years. The one who left with nothing else but a cold “Goodbye” and no explanation. She couldn’t move. She couldn’t talk.
***
“Hi… What are YOU doing here?”, said her.
“Just… curious. Of how you have been doing. Of seeing if you’re OK.”
“After 5 years? Are you serious? I should hit you. Right here, right now. But you owe me an explanation.”
“For?”
“So you don’t remember? You don’t remember leaving me by just telling me on the phone that we’re not gonna see each other again? Just like that, with no reasonable or unreasonable explanation.”
“I… I … It was just me. A problem I had”
“You can at least have the decency not to lie to me. Talk to me when you;re ready to tell me the truth” she said, sitting up and exiting the bar.
She didn’t know what to think anymore. She didn’t know what to feel anymore. She was confused, worried and happy in the same time. Now she just waited for him to give her a sign. And as she was walking in a fast pace, she heard her name being called. She turned her head back and she saw HIM….
[TO BE CONTINUED]
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